My crazy life

Ryan took the kids this morning to California to try and find a house. I hate not being able to be involved in this process. I have had a lot of the potential landlords send me pictures so that helps me feel more like I am there. I am sure the kids are having a good time at Grandma's. Joseph is with Ryan and when I last talked to them he was having a good time with his dad.

I have been feeling a little star crazy. I opened the blinds in my room today and wondered why I had not done so earlier. It has cheered my room and I love the outdoors. I am so excited to live in California where the weather is almost always nice. And I think it is great that we will move before it hits 120 degrees.

I watched a baby story today and it made me realize how wonderful my dear baby Joshua is. He rarely cries and he sleeps really well. When I put him down he goes right to sleep. He is my first child to take a pacifier so that is nice. I have always had mixed feelings about pacifiers so when my kids didn't take right to them I never pushed the issue. I love that it helps when he is so tired. He takes it and is asleep in minutes with no fuse. I don't like the idea of not being able to find it when he really needs it or having it fall on the ground and not being where you can clean it. I don't want him to have it when he is old enough to talk but how do you get ride of something that helps so much. Who knew binkies could be a topic of such deep thought?

His little face is changing so fast. I just want time to stand still while I devour this moment. I love him so much and feel so much love from this little sleeping boy.